🌾🪞🔄✝️ A Closed Hand Cannot Break Bread: Why the Last Must Be First!
Let’s explore Matthew 20:26–27 in light of Matthew 20:16 and the parable of the workers in the vineyard (20:1–16), tracing the thread of Jesus’ teaching on greatness, service, and divine reversal.
I. 🕊 1. The Context: The Parable’s Principle (20:1–16)
The parable of the workers in the vineyard begins with a landowner hiring laborers throughout the day—some at dawn, some at the third, sixth, ninth, and even the eleventh hour. Yet, all receive the same wage. This provokes protest from those who worked longest, feeling it unjust.
The master replies that he did them no wrong—they received what was agreed upon—and asserts his right to be generous (Greek: agathos, “good”) to whomever he wishes.
The parable concludes:
“So the last will be first, and the first last.” (20:16)
This is not a formula for competitive inversion but a statement about the kingdom’s logic—a divine economy where grace, not merit, determines reward. God’s generosity upends human systems of earning and entitlement.
👑 2. The Kingdom’s Inversion (20:16 → 20:26–27)
Soon after, Jesus repeats the same principle in a new setting. In Matthew 20:20–28, the mother of James and John asks that her sons sit at Jesus’ right and left in His kingdom—positions of greatness. Jesus seizes the moment to contrast earthly ambition with heavenly greatness:
“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant (diakonos), and whoever wants to be first must be your slave (doulos).” —Matthew 20:26–27
The echo of 20:16 (“the last will be first”) is intentional. Jesus interprets the parable’s kingdom logic in terms of character and calling, not pay and position. In the parable, last and first describe reward; here, they describe roles and attitudes.
The true “first” in God’s sight is the one who becomes “last” in self-interest—serving without concern for rank, repayment, or recognition.
💧 3. Word Study: Servant and Slave
- Servant (διάκονος, diakonos): One who ministers, waiting on others. It’s the root of deacon. This role emphasizes voluntary service motivated by love.
- Slave (δοῦλος, doulos): One who belongs wholly to another. It denotes absolute submission—the surrender of personal rights for the will of the master.
Together, they outline the path of Christlike greatness:
- To serve (as diakonos) is to choose humility.
- To be a slave (as doulos) is to live in total devotion to the will of God and the good of others.
✝️ 4. The Pattern of the Son of Man (20:28)
Jesus grounds His teaching in His own mission:
“Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many.”
This is the ultimate reversal: the Lord of Glory becoming a servant.
He is the truest fulfillment of “the last will be first”, for in His descent—humiliation, suffering, and death—He reveals the glory of divine love.
Paul later echoes this in Philippians 2:6–11, describing Christ’s downward path to exaltation: He emptied Himself, took the form of a servant (doulos), and therefore was highly exalted.
🔄 5. Reflection: The Cross as the Great Reversal
The cross is the ultimate vineyard moment—those who come late (even the thief on the cross) receive the same reward: eternal life.
The cross is also the ultimate throne—Jesus’ crown is of thorns, His exaltation through humiliation.
Thus, in the Kingdom, to descend is to ascend.
To be last is to stand nearest the heart of the King.
To serve is to rule in the truest sense.
🌿 Summary
- Matthew 20:16 states the principle: the last will be first.
- Matthew 20:26–27 applies it: greatness comes through servanthood.
- Matthew 20:28 reveals its heart: the Son of Man embodies it.
God’s kingdom inverts worldly hierarchies. What seems loss becomes gain; what seems lesser becomes greater. The vineyard laborers, the disciples, and ultimately Jesus Himself all display this divine paradox: those who embrace “last place” for love’s sake are first in God’s eyes.
II. 🌾 1. The Parable’s Purpose: A Mirror of the Heart
The landowner’s actions were deliberately provocative.
He chose to pay the last workers first — not to shame the early ones, but to expose what lay hidden in their hearts.
They had agreed to a fair wage. Nothing unjust had been done.
But when they saw others receive equal pay for less work, their envy surfaced.
“Are you envious because I am good?” (Matt 20:15)
The Greek literally says: Is your eye evil because I am good? (Paraphrased: Do you have an evil eye because I have a good eye?
This ties directly to Jesus’ teaching on the good and evil eye — generosity versus greed, grace versus comparison.
Thus, the “first being last” was not a punishment — it was revelatory grace.
The Master’s goodness drew out what was dormant in the heart.
The “last” rejoiced in unmerited kindness; the “first” resented it.
The same generosity that saves one, exposes another.
🕊 2. The Continuation: Matthew 20:26–27 in the Same Spirit
Right after this revelation, the disciples demonstrate that they still don’t see.
In verses 20–21, the mother of James and John asks for status — thrones beside Jesus. They want to be first again.
So Jesus brings the parable’s principle straight into their ambition:
“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant (diakonos), and whoever wants to be first must be your slave (doulos).” (vv. 26–27)
This is the same lesson, now embodied in relationships rather than wages.
The “first” (those who think they deserve more) must become the “last” (those who serve all).
In other words, you can’t perceive God’s generosity while still competing with it.
To truly see the Master’s goodness, you must stop measuring yourself against others and start mirroring His heart.
❤️ 3. The Master’s Goodness as the Model for Greatness
The parable showed the Master’s goodness.
Now Jesus calls His disciples to embody that same goodness:
“It shall not be so among you.” (v. 26a)
In the world, authority and power exist for self-exaltation.
But in the kingdom, authority exists to reveal the Master’s heart.
Thus, the one who is greatest is not the one elevated above others, but the one who descends to serve them — for that’s what divine goodness looks like.
Just as the Master’s generosity revealed the envy in others,
a servant’s humility reveals the pride in others — and often in ourselves.
So, when Jesus says the first must be last, He’s not just instructing behavior —
He’s describing the transformation required to perceive and reflect the goodness of God.
Only the humble heart can see grace AS grace and rejoice in another’s undeserved blessing.
✝️ 4. The Son of Man as the Living Parable
Jesus ends the teaching by embodying it:
“Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve…” (v. 28)
He, the eternal “First,” became “Last” — the servant of all —
so that we could see what the Father’s goodness truly looks like.
On the cross, He displayed the same shocking generosity as the vineyard master:
forgiving those who labored least, even at the eleventh hour.
The question returns: How does your heart respond to that generosity?
That’s the core of both the parable and the teaching. If we resent the equal grace of God given to others, we show that we still crave status, not sonship. But if we rejoice, we have learned the secret of greatness — the joy of mirroring His heart.
🌿 Summary: Seeing as the Master Sees
| Scene | Purpose | Heart Test | Divine Revelation |
|---|---|---|---|
| Vineyard Parable (20:1–16) | To reveal the Master’s goodness | Will you rejoice or resent grace? | God’s generosity exceeds fairness |
| Disciples’ Ambition (20:20–27) | To reveal the heart’s pride | Will you serve or seek status? | True greatness is self-giving love |
| The Cross (20:28) | To reveal the Son’s obedience | Will you follow in humility? | God’s love is servant-shaped glory |
💡 Meditation Thought
The vineyard was never about wages; it was about knowing the Master’s nature. Likewise, servanthood is not a strategy for greatness; it’s the natural response of one who has seen His goodness.
When you see someone blessed, how you respond reveals whether you’ve met the Master or merely worked in His field.
III. 🌾 1. The Grumbling of the First Workers: Echoes of the Wilderness
“When they received it, they began to grumble (gongyzō) against the landowner.” — Matthew 20:11
The Greek gongyzō is the same word the Septuagint uses for Israel’s grumbling in the wilderness (e.g., Exod 16:2, Num 14:2). By using this loaded word, Jesus subtly ties the dissatisfied laborers to that ancient pattern of ungrateful hearts reacting against divine generosity.
The Parallels
| Wilderness Generation | Workers in the Vineyard |
|---|---|
| Freed from slavery by grace | Hired by the master’s invitation |
| Promised daily manna | Promised a fair denarius |
| Given abundance but craved more | Paid fairly but envied others |
| Grumbled against Moses and God | Grumbled against the master |
| Fell under judgment | Exposed as blind to the master’s goodness |
In both stories, the issue is not injustice but ingratitude.
The first workers, like Israel, receive exactly what was promised — and still feel wronged because grace was extended to others.
Their complaint:
“You have made them equal to us.” (Matt 20:12)
This mirrors Israel’s complaint that God would bless Gentiles or tax collectors, or that grace could be distributed so freely.
Israel had hands closed, to retain God's blessings, (evil) eyes closed to God's truth, and hearts closed to God's mercy and grace. Israel's rich history of turning to the idols of the nations instead of being a light to the nations makes sense in light of the following:
Psalm 135:15-18 - The idols of the nations are silver and gold, the work of human hands. They have mouths, but do not speak; they have eyes, but do not see; they have ears, but do not hear, nor is there any breath in their mouths. Those who make them become like them; so do all who trust in them.
🔥 2. The Heart Behind the Grumbling
Grumbling always exposes a heart estranged from gratitude.
It grows from the soil of comparison, entitlement, and suspicion of God’s goodness.
In the wilderness, Israel questioned whether God was truly good — “Did you bring us out here to die?” In the vineyard, the workers question whether the master is fair — “Are you making us equal to them?”
Both miss the truth: the test was never about provision but about perception.
Would they see God as generous or as stingy?
Would they trust His goodness or demand control?
🕊 3. The Theological Continuation in Matthew 20:26–27
Jesus’ follow-up teaching connects perfectly:
“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant,
and whoever wants to be first must be your slave.”
The disciples’ desire for rank (as seen in James and John’s request) mirrors the same wilderness impulse — to grasp for privilege instead of trust in grace. Just as the first laborers couldn’t rejoice in generosity, the disciples struggled to rejoice in others’ exaltation.
The antidote is servanthood — the posture of gratitude, trust, and joy that delights in the Master’s goodness no matter whom He blesses.
When Jesus says, “Whoever wants to be first must be your slave,” He’s essentially saying: “Stop measuring what you think you deserve; live in awe of what you’ve already received.” Servanthood restores the heart to gratitude, the opposite of grumbling.
✝️ 4. The Wilderness Completed in Christ
Where Israel failed in the desert and the first workers failed in the vineyard, Jesus succeeded in His wilderness. When tested as far as doubting the Father’s goodness (“If You are the Son of God, command these stones to become bread”), He refused. Instead, He trusted the Father’s word and timing.
Jesus is the true and faithful worker who rejoices in the goodness of His Master. He did not grumble when others were blessed — He poured Himself out so that they could be.
Jesus' servanthood (vv. 26–28) is the antidote to Israel’s and humanity’s chronic ingratitude.
🌿 5. Spiritual Application
The “grumbling workers” are not villains — they are mirrors.
They reveal how our hearts often respond when God’s generosity feels unfair:
- When someone is forgiven more publicly,
- Blessed more obviously,
- Or promoted more quickly.
In those moments, God is giving us a chance to see our hearts as the first workers saw theirs — to repent of envy and rediscover gratitude.
As Paul later warns:
“Do everything without grumbling (gongyzmos) or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God.” (Phil 2:14–15)
🪞 Summary: The Grumbling that Tests the Heart
| Scene | Response | Revelation | Outcome |
|---|---|---|---|
| Wilderness | Grumbling at manna | Distrust of God’s goodness | Death in desert |
| Vineyard | Grumbling at generosity | Envy toward grace | Shame and exposure |
| Disciples | Grumbling ambition | Misunderstanding greatness | Correction toward servanthood |
| Jesus | Gratitude in obedience | Perfect trust in the Father | Exaltation and redemption |
💧 Reflection
“The test of grace is not how we respond when we receive it,
but how we respond when someone else does.”
Those who learn to rejoice in another’s reward are the ones who have seen the Master’s goodness clearly. The path from grumbling to greatness runs through gratitude and servanthood — the very road Jesus walked first.
Following the thread of the Father’s generous heart, if we place Matthew 20 (the vineyard parable and Jesus’ teaching on servanthood) alongside “Love your enemies” (Matt 5:44–45) and Philippians 2:14–15, a single, radiant theme emerges:
to reflect the Father’s goodness, one must rejoice in grace—even when it seems “unfair.”
IV. 🌤 1. “Love your enemies… that you may be children of your Father” (Matt 5:44–45)
“Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,
that you may be children of your Father in heaven.
He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good,
and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.”
Jesus describes God’s impartial generosity—the same shocking goodness the landowner displays in the vineyard. The Father gives sunlight and rain (the sources of fruitfulness) to all, not based on merit but on mercy.
So, when Jesus commands love for enemies, He’s inviting His followers to share His Father’s heart—to participate in the same gracious, indiscriminate generosity that offended the “first” laborers.
The ones who grumbled in the parable failed this test:
they couldn’t rejoice in the Master’s goodness toward those they deemed undeserving.
By contrast, the children of the Father delight in seeing grace reach even their “enemies,” because they know what it means to receive undeserved grace themselves.
To love one’s enemies, then, is to cease competing with God’s mercy and instead cooperate with it.
🌾 2. The Vineyard Revisited: The Father’s Sun and Rain in Parable Form
The vineyard master embodies the Father’s indiscriminate generosity:
- He seeks out idle workers all day long (divine initiative).
- He pays the undeserving equally (divine grace).
- He endures grumbling without retaliation (divine patience).
Those who worked longest saw this as injustice; those who came last saw it as salvation.
Jesus is teaching that the kingdom’s citizens are recognized by how they respond to the Father’s goodness shown to others.
So when He says in Matt 5:45 that loving enemies makes us “children of your Father,” He’s describing what the vineyard’s “last workers” experienced:
they rejoiced in mercy and therefore resembled the Master.
✝️ 3. Philippians 2:14–15 — The Restoration of the Grumbling Heart
“Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation. Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky.”
Paul is echoing both the wilderness generation and Jesus’ vineyard lesson.
The Greek gongyzmos (“grumbling”) appears again—the same root as in Matt 20:11 and the Septuagint’s description of Israel’s murmuring.
The contrast is deliberate:
- The Israelites grumbled and were struck down (Num 14:29).
- The Philippians are urged to shine as children of God instead (Phil 2:15).
To “shine” is to reflect the light of the Father—the same light He causes to rise on the evil and the good (Matt 5:45). In other words, gratitude replaces grumbling, and mercy replaces merit, when the heart mirrors the Father’s generosity.
🌿 4. The Moral Geometry of Grace
We can visualize the spiritual progression this way:
| Scene | Test | Response of the Flesh | Response of the Spirit | Result |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| Wilderness | Manna and scarcity | Grumbling and distrust | Gratitude and faith | Death or life |
| Vineyard | Unequal grace | Envy and resentment | Joy and celebration | Exposure or reflection |
| Jesus’ teaching | Love of enemies | Resistance, fairness-demand | Mercy and prayer | Resemblance to Father |
| Philippians | Life in community | Complaining and rivalry | Humility and light | “Children of God, shining” |
The same issue persists across Scripture:
Will we love only those who deserve it, or will we love like the Father—who gives to all, even those who do not?
🕊 5. The Cross: Love for the “Enemies” in the Vineyard
At the cross, Jesus becomes the perfect image of this teaching. He loves His enemies (“Father, forgive them”), rejoices in the Father’s will, and gives His life so that the undeserving—those who arrived “at the eleventh hour”—might receive the same reward: eternal life.
Jesus is the true laborer who works the full day and then gives His wage to the idle ones, not with grumbling, but with joy.
By doing so, He reveals the Father’s heart fully and invites us to reflect it: to love, serve, and give without calculation.
🌞 6. Summary: Children of the Father vs. Grumblers in the Vineyard
| Trait | Grumbler | Child of the Father |
|---|---|---|
| Measures by fairness | Yes | No |
| Rejoices in others’ blessing | No | Yes |
| Loves enemies | No | Yes |
| Reflects divine light | No—darkened eye | Yes—shines like stars |
| Relationship to grace | Competes with it | Cooperates with it |
The Father’s children are those who have allowed His generosity to convert their envy into empathy. They love enemies, bless the last, and serve joyfully, not to earn reward but because they’ve already received one.
In the vineyard, the sun rises on the early and the late alike. Only those who love like their Father can truly enjoy its warmth.
💧 Reflection
To love your enemies is to stop grumbling at grace.
It is to see others’ undeserved blessing and call it beautiful.
V. ✝️ 1. If Jesus Had a Closed Hand
A closed hand is the physical image of refusal, withholding, or control.
Throughout Scripture, God’s generosity is pictured with an open hand:
“You open Your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.” — Psalm 145:16
If Jesus had a closed hand, then:
- He would not have fed the hungry,
- Touched the leper,
- Blessed the children,
- Or offered Himself on the cross.
A closed hand cannot wash feet.
A closed hand cannot break bread.
A closed hand cannot be pierced.
The open hand of Christ is the Father’s generosity made visible — the same generosity that offended the “first” workers in the vineyard.
If His hand were closed, redemption would remain theoretical. Grace would never reach us, because His love would have stopped at fairness.
👁 2. If Jesus Had an Evil Eye
An evil eye (Greek: ophthalmos ponēros) is not demonic sight but a spirit of envy, stinginess, and suspicion — the opposite of the “good eye” (ayin tovah), which sees others through generosity and compassion.
In the vineyard parable, the master asks:
“Is your eye evil because I am good?” (Matt 20:15)
If Jesus had an evil eye, He would have looked upon sinners — tax collectors, prostitutes, His betrayers — with contempt rather than compassion.
He would have seen competition where the Father saw children.
But Jesus’ eye was good — pure, generous, unclouded by comparison.
He saw the image of God in the very ones who hated Him.
He saw potential where others saw waste.
He saw the kingdom where others saw enemies.
His eye remained single (Matt 6:22–23) — fixed on His Father’s will and His Father’s goodness. That vision kept Him from the blindness of resentment.
❤️ 3. If Jesus Had Hated Those Who Stood as His Enemies
If Jesus had hated His enemies, the story would end in the same darkness as human history: retaliation, division, cycles of violence.
But instead, He absorbed their hatred and transformed it into forgiveness.
“Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”
— Luke 23:34
At the very moment the world displayed its deepest hostility, Jesus displayed the Father’s deepest love. That prayer is the opposite of the wilderness grumbling, the vineyard envy, and the human lust for fairness. It is the voice of a Son who loves His enemies so that they might become children of His Father.
If Jesus had hated His enemies:
- The cross would have been vengeance, not atonement.
- Mercy would have been withheld from those who crucified Him — and from us, since we too were once His enemies (Rom 5:10).
- Heaven itself would be empty, for none could stand by merit.
🌿 4. The Spiritual Logic: Open Hand → Good Eye → Loving Heart
The flow of divine generosity moves in this order:
| Symbol | Represents | Revealed in Jesus |
|---|---|---|
| 🖐 Open Hand | Giving freely, grace shared | Feeding, healing, blessing |
| 👁 Good Eye | Seeing others through love | Compassion on sinners and outcasts |
| ❤️ Loving Heart | Embracing even enemies | Forgiveness from the cross |
To reverse that order — closed hand, evil eye, hateful heart — would be to un-write the Gospel. It would turn the Kingdom of Heaven into a meritocracy and the cross into a courtroom without mercy.
But Jesus came to reveal that the Father’s greatness is His generosity, and His vulnerability is His victory.
🔥 5. The Mirror for Us
When we grumble at grace, envy others’ blessings, or harden our hearts toward those who wound us, we step out of alignment with the very nature of the One we claim to follow.
The question, “What if Jesus had a closed hand, an evil eye, and hated His enemies?” is not hypothetical — it’s diagnostic.
It invites us to ask: Have I closed my own hand? Has my eye grown dark? Do I love as He loved me?
Because to follow Christ is to let His posture become ours:
- Open hands that give,
- Clear eyes that bless,
- Soft hearts that forgive.
💧 Reflection
If Jesus had an evil eye, none of us would be saved.
But because His eye was good, we who were last have become first—
not through merit, but through mercy.
His open hands built the Kingdom.
His good eye saw worth in the undeserving.
His love for enemies made orphans into sons.
That is what it means to be children of the Father in heaven — to see, to give, and to love the way Jesus did, so that the world might look at us and recognize His goodness in our gaze.
VI. ✝️ 1. The Eternal First Worker
Before time began, the Son already existed in perfect union with the Father and the Spirit — eternally loved, eternally worthy, eternally first.
“He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.” — Colossians 1:17
“In the beginning was the Word… and the Word was God.” — John 1:1
He is the One who never had to be “hired.”
The vineyard was His before it ever opened for laborers.
And yet — He steps into the story as though He were one of us, humbling Himself to work alongside those who come late and contribute little.
The eternal First becomes the Servant of all.
🌾 2. The True First Worker: Laboring from Dawn
If we map the parable of the vineyard onto the Gospel, Christ Himself is the first laborer, not in complaint but in perfect obedience.
He worked from the “first hour” — from before creation, from the dawn of history — sustaining all things by His word. When humanity fell, He continued to work:
- In the garden, promising redemption.
- Through Israel, shaping a people.
- Through the prophets, calling us back.
And finally, in the “fullness of time,” He entered the vineyard in flesh bearing the heat of the day (submission to death, the wage for our sin) that we could not endure, a heat so intense He was even sweating blood.
🩸 3. The Exchange of Wages
“The wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” — Romans 6:23
In the parable, the last workers receive a denarius they didn’t earn.
In the Gospel, the last workers (us) receive eternal life, not because we labored long, but because He did.
Jesus, the first and faithful Worker, exchanged wages with us:
- He took our death, the rightful payment for our sin.
- We received His life, the reward of His righteousness.
So when the Master pays all the workers the same, He’s not violating fairness — He’s revealing substitution.
👑 4. Sharing the Inheritance
“We are heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ.” — Romans 8:17
Jesus doesn’t just share His wages; He shares His inheritance.
He who eternally possessed all things chooses to divide the spoils with those who came in the last hour — the undeserving, the repentant, the latecomers.
He calls us “brothers and sisters” (Heb 2:11) and gives us the same glory the Father gave Him (John 17:22).
This is the unimaginable generosity of God:
The Eternal Son, who worked from before the dawn of time, now delights to say to those hired at the eleventh hour,
“Take what belongs to you and go. I choose to give to this last one the same as I give to you.” (Matt 20:14)
Only, He’s not speaking to complainants now — He’s speaking to us as family.
He’s saying: “What’s Mine is yours.”
🔥 5. The Wrath and the Wage
He took on our sin and God’s wrath.
That means the heat of the day (Matt 20:12) wasn’t just the sun — it was judgment. He bore the wrath due to all the laborers, enduring the curse of the vineyard — “cursed is the ground because of you” (Gen 3:17) — s o that we might reap the blessing of His toil.
In that light, the cross is the final hour of the workday, where the first Worker labors to exhaustion, and the last are simply called in to collect what He earned.
That’s grace — scandalous, humbling, beautiful grace.
🕊 6. The Divine Reversal Perfected
Let’s trace the reversal full circle:
| Role | Description | Outcome |
|---|---|---|
| Jesus, the First | Preexistent, eternal, obedient | Becomes servant, bears wrath |
| Humanity, the Last | Latecomers, sinners, unworthy | Receives same reward: life and inheritance |
| The Father | Master of the vineyard | Delights to give equally, revealing His goodness |
| The Spirit | Overseer of the work | Seals us as heirs, empowering us to labor with gratitude |
This is not unfair; it is the Gospel’s logic — divine generosity replacing human comparison. It's the antithesis of Cain's comparison, where there is no downcast face because God sees fit to bless someone else.
🌞 7. What This Reveals of the Father’s Heart
- The Father is not a wage-master; He is a giver of inheritance.
- The Son is not a resentful first worker; He is a joyful elder brother who rejoices to share.
- The Spirit is not an impersonal manager; He is the Helper who empowers latecomers to live as sons, not hirelings.
When Jesus says, “Whoever wants to be first must be your slave” (Matt 20:27), He is describing His own story
— the eternal First (Alpha) becoming the last (Omega) so that the last (humanity) might become sons.
💧 Reflection
“The First Worker never grumbled at the Master’s generosity—
He revealed it.”
“He who was before all things worked until the end of all things,
so that the idle and the unworthy might share all things (His reward).”
When we enter the vineyard at the last hour, we are not merely laborers; we are adopted heirs, receiving what the Son earned and freely gives.
To love like Him, then, is to labor without envy, to rejoice when others are blessed, and to marvel that the eternal First would call us, servants, siblings, and friends.